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hari senin se bakal berangkat ke lampung. jadi rute perjalanannya, subuh2 ke kampusku,unhas,trus sama2 rombongan ke bandara hasanuddin. dengan pesawat lion air keberangkatan 6.15,kita berangkat ke jakarta. nyampe di bandara soekarno hatta, me, still with rombongan unhas yang jumlahnya skitar 40an itu, bertolak ke pelabuhan. setelah perjalanan selama 2 jam sampelah kita ke pelabuhan dan langsung naik feri. kalo cuaca cukup bersahabat, bisa nyampe ke pelabuhan lampung slama 3 jam. xmpe di pelabuhan, msh harus naik bus tuk nyampe ke lokasi, which is Universitas Lampung. is could take about 2 hours 4 dat. total lama perjalanan sekitar 10hours.. well, at least that is what my lecture told me. hopefully, we could arrive there earlier, coz i hate long journey. palagi akhir2 ini terlalu banyak kecelakaan,huhu..merinding.. kemaren ada kapal feri yg tenggelam,pesawat indonesia dilarang masuki wilayah eropa karena kualitasnya yang tdk mcapai standar, trus theres lots of buses falling and crashing. damn, that scares me a lot.

so what makes me go to lampung in the 1st place? still about debating. fortunetly, d university chose me, n my other team mate, gita n oji, to represent unhas in pimnas xx, for english debate. doain kita menang yachh!!

eniwei, ill stay there for 6 days.itu sudah dengan perjalanan, technical meeting, pembukaan, acara inti, penutupan, plus jalan2x (this is my favorite part).

klo rombangan dah pada pulang, se bakal stay longer di jakarta buat my real holiday. i have lots of plan in jkt, wanna try thunder di dufan, mo shopping di mangga dua, visit my ponakan dat i never met be4, makan roti india yg cuma ada di plaza senayan, ketemu artis2, n many2 more. pokoke, have fun go mad.

kl ternyata urusan krs ku belum kelar, i could stay 4 only 3 days, kl sudah beres, i can stay there as long as i want to. that what my mom said,,hehehe..so happy!!!

so, im gonna pack!!!

Hampirmi valentine!! I haven’t figure out what to give echa..huhuhu..

Im thinking bout this red c****** s***, but this should be his birthday gift. Ive been thnking bout a t-shirt, but someone told me that it is ‘pamali’ if we give our partner a shirt. Then ive been thinking bout brownies cake with love shape and full of chocolates, but ive made this several times, for his birthday a year ago his mom’s birthday. It wont be special anymore. Anyway, it’s a cake, i need something long lasting,something that he could keep, that could remind him of me. J

Then comes some ‘things’ on my mind, like a belt, wallet, basket ball,,,

Tapi dari semua itu, blm ada yg bener2 nyangkut dihatiku. Klo tahun lalu se ngasih drum stick yg di bungkus pake bungkusan gede yg lucu, tus isinya ada kertas2 and permen2 coklat. Tapi…drum sticknya patah…hiks,walopun dia udah nyambungin lagi pake lem,,hehehe..so, it should be something yang bisa dipake tapi gak gampamg rusak..hayuuu..apa??!?

Sbenarnya, se rada takut nih pake acara valentine-an segala, coz denger2 people who celebrate it are musyrik,,hiii… so, daripada ragu2 g seneng, se majuin tgl nya ke 13 feb. anggap aja se muhamadiyah, jadi sehari lebih cepat,,hohoho..lagian hari rabu,14feb, kuliahku padat, mpe jam 4.

Ok, so for the guys whos reading this blog,,yeah, I need some advices!!

Presentation n interview test

i did well on my presentation! Yes yes… i talked with full convidence infront of the interviewer and the rector. Even though I didn’t practice, even a bit, tp alhamdulillah, ngmngnya lancar-lancar aja. Tapi…i did crap on the interview.

The first interviewer asked me bout my reasons applying for this scholarship program, jwbnku so-so lah, then moving to the next question, which is POLITICS.s**t..(fyi, although im in sospol department, I hate politics,so bad) cant answer it, so bengong aja ding. The second interviewer, asking bout another politic question. He asked me sumthing bout ‘bebas aktif policy’. honestly, that was the first time I heard that word,tp daripada diam2 saja yg tentunya akan memperjelas kebodohanku,maka menjawablah saya dengan sok taunya. The next interviewer, which is the last one(untungnyah) ask bout a simple question (finally), yg bisa saya jawab dgan jwban yg cukup masuk akal.

O ya, bokap

kan

dosen di unhas.trus, salah satu interviewernya adalah kenalan bokap. Wktu lg nunggu giliran diinterview, interviewer itu, yg namanya Tajuddin Parenta, nyamperin n lgsg ngmg,’ I know u, u look familiar.let me see..u are the daughter of rusnadi padjung, am I right?’. Se dgn mantapnya ngangguk.trus dy lanjutin lg, ‘tell

ur

father, i will score u based on

ur

ability, not from

ur

family background. And I am pak taju.’. tuing….is he thinking that im expecting a plus plus for being a daughter of his collegues?

Susah

yah hidup di negara yg penuh dgn kkn..punya kenalan dikit aja, lgsg disangka mau lewat ‘jalur damai’. yah…tapi skali skali bolehlah…hwekwekwek J

Oke, so about this scholarship program. keknya theres a big misunderstanding here. Soalnya, ada beberapa kandidat yg berpikir bahwa yg bkalan lulus 3 org. Padahal yg lulus cm 1!!kemungkinan lulusnya semakin mengecil. Uhhuhuh..harapanku sirna lah sudah.tapi untungnya se g sedih…aneh yah.mungkin krn dari awal se gak ngebet bgt kali yah. Ternyata ada untungnya spiritku hilang, gak lama dirundung kekecewaan,,hehehe.

ngisi KRS

stelah tes nya selesai, se lgsg menuju ke fakultas buat ngurusin krs. Untungnya semua ‘org-org penting’ yg se butuhkan ttd nya ada ji di ruangannya masing-masing, jadi ndak berbelit-belitji urusan. so after having all of d signatures se kumpul mi ke academic. Semua selesai,maka pulanglah saya.

Di rumah: telp dea, ngmng tolo2 dulu trus nax bout krs nya. Ternyata oh ternyata, ada 2 matkul ku yg beda sama punya dea,terus…matkul yg dea ambil sama smua sama temn2 angktan ku yg lain..yg artinya se bakalan g sekelas sama teman2ku dlm 2 kelas…huuhuuhuu..sedihnya

mau nonton ‘shutter’

jam menunjukkan pukul 12 malam. Biasanya jam segini se dah ada dibalik selimutku yg tebal nan lembut, ditemani dgn guling yg tebal nan lembut juga. Tapi…krn ada film horror,’shutter’, yg mo main di lativi, jd begadang ma’. Secara saya orgnya gmpg ketiduran di depan tv, maka pindahlah tongkronganku di depan kompie ini.dan karna emang g ada kerjaan yg berarti, maka muncullah blog ini yg isinya lebih panjang dari biasanya.

banyak orang yang mengenal diriku sebagai orang yg ambisius, yg kalo punya keinginan harus bisa capai keinginan itu..apalagi yah, kl keinginan itu berhubungan dengan a better future… tapi knapa yah spirit ambisiusnya lost??

ceritanyah, dea kalla recommended my name tuk ikut a scholarship program. Kl ngeliat brosur program itu, I can tell that nobody would say “no” for this program. Krn emang, this program menarik BGT..

so, se dah dapat panggilan sama pihak rektor tuk ikut presentasi dan tes wawancara which would be tomorrow. Hal yg akan dipresentasikan itu ttg essay yg dah disuruh tuk dibuat sebelumnya. Biasanya, se sudah akan buat preparation yg amat sangat total, tp sekarang, I haven’t even think bout what to write in the essays yet…dongdong…

damn, what the hell is wrong with me?!?! I feel like im a stranger. I don’t even know who I am anymore..

ive totally lost my spirit.. SPIRIT!!where the hell r u!!! I need you!!!

pemirsa…tau kan kalo kemaren2 itu se dah dapat magang kerja d fajar?? nah,,begitu masuk disitu, se ma dea langsung dikasih tugas baca VO,suara yg kedengaran pas lg ada gmbr di berita itu loh, sama cari berita..yah, lgsg ke lokasi n ngewawancarain org2..

ternyataaa dunia pers itu sungguh melelahkan. contohnya yah..i gotta liput news bout AIDS di wahidin, jadi berangkatlah saya naik motor jam 12 teng keRS yg jauh itu. nympe di sana, qt(me n d kameraman) hrs ngiterin wahidin dari ujung mpe ujung tuk dpt britanya.eh, ujung2x baru ketahuan kalo kabar AIDS yg dihidap 1keluarga yg mau qt liput itu,is only a gossip!! nah, di dunia per-pers-an ini qt dah dijatahin jml berita yg hrs didpt, jd krn wkt itu qt gagal dpt brita AIDS we had to keliling unhas tuk cari berita lagi..berita apa aja…tapi g berhasil!! cant u imagine that,,se diatas motor,di siang panas terik matahari,berjam-jam, keliling2 g jelas, n g dapat berita satu pun!!!

omigosh….i cnt believe that this is what i have been dreaming 4…jd, wkt sma itu, i had this goal kl se harus bisa jd news anchor. debatings,putri indonesia contest, masuk international relations, sampe akhirnya masuk diklat broadcast,all of those so i can reach my dream being an anchor woman. tp pas se dpt kesempatan tuk really be in that world, kok i feel that ths is not what i really want..

i think im changing my mind now, i think i dont wanna be an anchor woman anymore,, if my thoughts are right, do u think i can turn back n rebuild my future dreams?? isnt tht too late??

hari ini saya dah resmi magang di fajar tv. jadi, 4 bulan yang lalu tuh, se ikutan diklat broadcast. slama 4 bulan itu, kita dibekali ilmu2 didunia broadcast, dari kameraman,pembuatan naskah, news reader, ampe ngedit-ngedit suara.

dari situ, kita di kasih fasilitas tuk magang sebulan. pilihannya lumayan banyak, but chose fajar tv karena denger2 they need a news reader..maksudnya skalian gitu,,sapa tau producernya can see my potential kan>>heheh

so anyway, tadi itu kru2nya fajar tv welcome bgt…mreka bener2 ngebimbing kita (me n dea). kita diajar ngedit-ngedit berita, voice over, masuk studio, n many more…so fun!!!! n guess what, besok se udah dikasih tugas tuk liput berita…hope iti would be much much fun!!!

sejak masuk di semester 3 ini, belum ada dosen yang pernah ngasih tugas. tapi begitu dikasi tugas, susahnya minta ampun. just imagine, waktu pas dikasi tugasnya, se dgn semangat 45 udah masang target harus slesai dlm waktu 2hari. n u know what, skarang dah h-2, i havent type anything, not even a word. harusnya skarang se dirumah thinking bout konsep yg bakalan se tuang ke tugas itu, but ive been doin this 4days lately n i havent got a clue yet. so here i am, running away from my tugas!!hahaha…

question is, emang tugasnya yg susah, ato sayahnya aja yg bolot??? wekekek…otakku yg berkarat kali yah. since knowing that my head is absolutely empty, i made an idea sama BALAGOZ. jd tiap minggu tuh, kita harus ngumpul gitu,then diskusi bout current issue.mmmhh…stengah jam gitulah..trus 1jamx dipake gosip…hahaha…ya iyalah, essence of beind balagoz, yah gosip itu..

ngmg soal gosip, jadi ingat kalo ini nih satu hal yg paling berprestasi bqn puasaku batal. cant stop my mouth of doin this..huhu..ada g yah obat tuk menghentikn kecanduan gosip??

klo ada calon dokter yg baca blog ku ini, tlg dok, ciptakan obat yg se sebut tadi.i really need it,,,,.

duh,ngmg tolo tolo ku di, nda penting skali. maafkan saya pembaca setia blog ku. lagi g focus coz the damn tugas!!

hampir semua majalah remaja cewek sibuk ngumbarin betapa beruntungnya kita para cewe terlahir sbg seorang ce. mulai dari masalah cinta, kalo cewe tinggal nunggu tuk ditembak ato dilamar, ato klo udah ngrasa g cocok, ce bisa mutusin tanpa dianggap player.
masalah gaya, cewe mo pake clana, topi, rok, boot, rompi, ato apapun itu, g masalah.smentara cowok, pake bando…nga deh,,.
masaLah psikologis, cewek bisa nangis sepuasnya klo nnton film drama ato ketawa ngakak sampe jungkir balik.
n masih banyak keuntungan jadi cewek..REMAJA, basiclly.

tapi coba deh, when ure 20 years old keatas, think about ur education.
klo pendidikan kita mpe tamat sma dOang, sama suAmi keLak, kita bS diinjak2 dan diremEhkan.why? coZ qtatergantung sama suami, daRi segi ekonoMi utamanya. what caN we do dGn ijaZah sMa jaman skrg??
taPi klo teRnyata kita mpe dpt geLar s2, ada g yg cowok yG mo deketin. i meAn, cowok tUh punya ego yG tinggi dLm hal ini, mreKa tentu saJa g mau jd kLiatan lebih bOdoh daripada paSangannya.weLL, klopun ada, bRapa sih?? bukan saah cowok juga kLo tiba2 iDeaLx sperti itu, coZ its a stereotype.its boRn from soCiety’s mind pd umumnya anyway.
thEn kLo seandainya si cewek memilih untuk slesaiin s1 aja trus dLanjuti lagi klo dah meRit, suamiX bakaL ijinin g? coZ again, cowok g mau dikalah. tapi sebaLikny cewek juga haRus pasang kekuatan, jgn samPe diinjak-injak ma suami nantix.
why am i so parno? coz we have to see the reality..
lets say POLIGAMI..koq biSa yah, ada org yg mau diduakan.. maybe, org itu sebeNarx g perNah reLa tuk diduakan, but it happens onLy coZ this woMen dOesnt have any other optiOns.
se suka seDih liat perceRaian yg terjadi kaRena orG ketiga. dimana situaSinya itu, si suami yG duLunya g ada apA2x..tapi kaRena kesabaran dan doROngan sang iStri, dia biSa suKses. dan stelah sukses, dy milih ntuk tinggaLkan istriX, and find someone new!! like yusriL isha maHendra. whT a heaRt breaker..

so, is being a female still so grEat??

pusingpusingpusing….

knapa y, when it comes to love life, bawaanX pusing mulu…def of LOVE LIFE in this case is bout d status…
gIla..im totally in a hArd time.. huhuhu…SOMEONE…CAN U JUST SHOOT ME RITE NOW!!!

the guy im dating now is so amazing…he is too close to perfect…n guess what, i dont have the damn feeling!!! why do i have to do the same old mistake?? yeah…blame me for being such a dumb person.

n do u know whats d biggest mistake??? i POST IT!!!

is there any1 out there more insane???

Hm…how much experience do we need to really be an expert in romance?

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I mean people can date since they’re 15 years old and then still never get it right when they’re 40.

Kalo kenyataan memang benar kayak gitu, bagaimana dengan saya yang punya pengalaman minim (banget)?

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I end up always asking for advice from my friends. You know, I would like to be able memutuskan apa yang harus atau don’t have to do…in love stuff, that is. Ato setidaknya punya analisis yg lebih kritis lah about masalah2 gituan.

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Am I naïve? Or am I plain stupid? The second guess is too harsh, so I’m gonna go with “naïve” because you can’t blame naïve people

Kenapa sy beranggapan kalo sy naïve? Of course, saya punya strong evidence (debat banget): I was in a relationship and it turned out that I’d been fooled for a loooooooong period of time. It hurts. Sakit banget.

Kenapa sy bisa percaya sekali sama orang?

But now, I know I’m less naïve than I was… I’m not as stupid as I was (for you people who think I’m stupid for not realizing what kind of relationship I was in for a loooooooooong period of time).

He was a good guy and if I were a “gold digger”, he had given me everything I could ask for. Tapi sy bukan GoldDigger. Somehow, ^beside the fact that he lied to me a lot^ dia gagal memenuhi certain needs of mine. Dalam kata lain, dy gagal making me love him. But the past is the past, and this particular past has no necessity to ever put itself back in my present, let alone my future.

my scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I’m pissed cause you came around

Why don’t you just go home

You’re making me insane
Go Fix yourself…

I cannot help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

Sekarang sy understand more that you can’t just think you can love someone in the end, because it never happened! Not to anyone I know, at least.

I’m a Jomblo now and I can say I enjoy *almost* everything about it J …

ALtHouGh…I’M starting to get the chemistry with a “candy”… I do hope this one will lead to something nice, like a next relationship, maybe? … (if it is, it better be much better than my last one!)

I’m attracted to him. I’ve heard stories about him and I can’t find anything “seriously damaging” about him… how can someone be almost that perfect?

I don’t blame Dea karena dy freak out gara2 pernah punya candy yang almost perfect gitu (cakep, independent, rajin sholat, care ama dy, lucu, pintar, banyak kesamaanx ama dy, dE eL eL)…

Karena kalo dipikir2, it’s so hard to keep up with the candy yang almost perfect kyk gitu… ada perasaan inferior, atw merasa takut dy won’t feel the same because we’re not as *almost* perfect as they are…

Makanya, sampe sekarang, sy masih wondering… apa sih flawx ini orang? De bilang kalo my candy ini suka sekali tidur kalo hang out di rumahx, tapi menurut sy that particular flaw is not qualified enough!!!

Well actually ada sih flawx: he’s younger than me. And it’s not even his fault. I mean, there is absolutely nothing to do about it, we just gotta learn to accept it.

Aduuuh… dear candy, what’s your flaw(s)?

IS THE WORLD SUCH

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Hm… kenapa orang2 yang ketemu sama saya yang kenal juga ama my candy knows that kita sering sms-an? And tidak berakhir disitu… ada juga orang yang kenal sama temanku tapi tidak kenal sama sy yang katanya mo liat “yang namax Dian”…

I don’t remember being this popular…. Hm….kok bisa yah?

I mean eko knows about it padahal dy belum pernah ketemu lagi sama my candy, it means ada orang yang told him… sepertix gossip berkembang pesat! And my candy doesn’t even go to UNHAS bagian TAMALANREA!

Masalahx… it puts me in the danger zone… why? Because it seems that someone else is interested in me and since I only have the chemistry for my candy, I can’t give signals to this other person yang bisa disalahartikan karena kalo berita ttg sms-an ku saja bisa berkembang pesat gimana berita2 yang lain? (duuuh, maaf yah celebrity geetoooloooh!)

Okay, it’s official now. I have a crush on him. My candy, that is…. J