Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
Hm…how much experience do we need to really be an expert in romance?
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I mean people can date since they’re 15 years old and then still never get it right when they’re 40.
Kalo kenyataan memang benar kayak gitu, bagaimana dengan saya yang punya pengalaman minim (banget)?
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I end up always asking for advice from my friends. You know, I would like to be able memutuskan apa yang harus atau don’t have to do…in love stuff, that is. Ato setidaknya punya analisis yg lebih kritis lah about masalah2 gituan.
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Am I naïve? Or am I plain stupid? The second guess is too harsh, so I’m gonna go with “naïve” because you can’t blame naïve people 
Kenapa sy beranggapan kalo sy naïve? Of course, saya punya strong evidence (debat banget): I was in a relationship and it turned out that I’d been fooled for a loooooooong period of time. It hurts. Sakit banget.
Kenapa sy bisa percaya sekali sama orang?
But now, I know I’m less naïve than I was… I’m not as stupid as I was (for you people who think I’m stupid for not realizing what kind of relationship I was in for a loooooooooong period of time).
He was a good guy and if I were a “gold digger”, he had given me everything I could ask for. Tapi sy bukan GoldDigger. Somehow, ^beside the fact that he lied to me a lot^ dia gagal memenuhi certain needs of mine. Dalam kata lain, dy gagal making me love him. But the past is the past, and this particular past has no necessity to ever put itself back in my present, let alone my future.
my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I’m pissed cause you came around
Why don’t you just go home
You’re making me insane
Go Fix yourself…
I cannot help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
Sekarang sy understand more that you can’t just think you can love someone in the end, because it never happened! Not to anyone I know, at least.
I’m a Jomblo now and I can say I enjoy *almost* everything about it J …
ALtHouGh…I’M starting to get the chemistry with a “candy”… I do hope this one will lead to something nice, like a next relationship, maybe? … (if it is, it better be much better than my last one!)
I’m attracted to him. I’ve heard stories about him and I can’t find anything “seriously damaging” about him… how can someone be almost that perfect?
I don’t blame Dea karena dy freak out gara2 pernah punya candy yang almost perfect gitu (cakep, independent, rajin sholat, care ama dy, lucu, pintar, banyak kesamaanx ama dy, dE eL eL)…
Karena kalo dipikir2, it’s so hard to keep up with the candy yang almost perfect kyk gitu… ada perasaan inferior, atw merasa takut dy won’t feel the same because we’re not as *almost* perfect as they are…
Makanya, sampe sekarang, sy masih wondering… apa sih flawx ini orang? De bilang kalo my candy ini suka sekali tidur kalo hang out di rumahx, tapi menurut sy that particular flaw is not qualified enough!!!
Well actually ada sih flawx: he’s younger than me. And it’s not even his fault. I mean, there is absolutely nothing to do about it, we just gotta learn to accept it.
Aduuuh… dear candy, what’s your flaw(s)?
IS THE WORLD SUCH
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Hm… kenapa orang2 yang ketemu sama saya yang kenal juga ama my candy knows that kita sering sms-an? And tidak berakhir disitu… ada juga orang yang kenal sama temanku tapi tidak kenal sama sy yang katanya mo liat “yang namax Dian”…
I don’t remember being this popular…. Hm….kok bisa yah?
I mean eko knows about it padahal dy belum pernah ketemu lagi sama my candy, it means ada orang yang told him… sepertix gossip berkembang pesat! And my candy doesn’t even go to UNHAS bagian TAMALANREA!
Masalahx… it puts me in the danger zone… why? Because it seems that someone else is interested in me and since I only have the chemistry for my candy, I can’t give signals to this other person yang bisa disalahartikan karena kalo berita ttg sms-an ku saja bisa berkembang pesat gimana berita2 yang lain? (duuuh, maaf yah celebrity geetoooloooh!)
Okay, it’s official now. I have a crush on him. My candy, that is…. J
